By Bex Langstaff, LCMHC-A
When I was younger, I learned quickly what earned approval: being helpful, being agreeable, being “good.” I didn’t have the words for it then, but I could feel the quiet pressure to fit myself into whatever shape made other people most comfortable. For a long time, I mistook those expectations for my identity.
As I grew older, I realized just how many of us carry these invisible rules about who we’re supposed to be. Some of them come from family or culture, some from the communities we grew up in, and some from the messages we absorbed simply by living in a world that idealizes certain kinds of lives: neurotypical, heteronormative, able-bodied, productive, career-driven, partnered, or neatly following one predictable path.
Even if you don’t identify with those norms, you can still feel their weight. Many people I meet – especially queer folks, neurodivergent folks, creative spirits, late bloomers, and anyone who has always felt “different” – grow up sensing that who they naturally are doesn’t quite fit the script they were handed.
And yet, that feeling isn’t limited to people on the margins. I’ve also seen people who appear to be living very “traditional” or “successful” lives quietly wonder: Is this really me? Or did I just learn how to play the part?
We’re often taught that identity exploration is something reserved for adolescence, as if there’s a deadline for knowing who you are. By your early twenties, you’re expected to have your values, goals, and direction neatly mapped out.
But I’ve never found that to be true.
What I’ve learned, both through my own growth and through sitting with clients, is that there is no “right” way to live a life. There is no perfect timeline, no single definition of success, no finish line where you finally become the “correct” version of yourself.
Our paths are nonlinear and unpredictable, filled with questions and contradictions, moments of tenderness and moments of clarity. And it’s in knowing ourselves more honestly and deeply, not in perfecting ourselves, that we find meaning.
In my experience, both personally and professionally, identity is not a stage of life – it’s a lifelong unfolding. We grow, we change, we outgrow old versions of ourselves. Sometimes we realize a label that once felt comforting no longer fits. Sometimes a truth we tucked away years ago suddenly asks to be acknowledged. Sometimes the life that once felt “right” starts to feel too small.
And sometimes, for the first time, we finally feel brave enough, or safe enough, to ask, Who am I really, underneath all the expectations?
The process of unlearning the internal rules we inherited can be messy, confusing, and incredibly tender. It asks us to become curious, to sit with uncertainty, to follow the quiet signals of our own authenticity. It’s not always easy work, but it is deeply meaningful.
I never take for granted what it means when someone shares that journey with me. The question “Who am I, really?” holds so much courage. It opens the door to a life that is yours. Not the one you were taught to live, not the one that looks good from the outside, but the one that feels true on the inside.
That’s the work I’m most passionate about: helping people – especially those who have felt “different,” unseen, or boxed in by expectations – find the freedom to know themselves more fully and to live in alignment with who they truly are.
If you’re reading this and wondering who you are underneath all the expectations, I’d be honored to support you. You can learn more about my work here: ashevillefamilycounseling.com/bex-langstaff/
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